i wish i didn't have this nervous laugh 
i wish i didn't say half the stuff i say 
i wish i could just learn to cover my tracks 
i guess i'm not concerned about getting away 
 
'cause every time i try to hold my tongue 
it slips like a fish from a line 
they say if you want to play 
you should learn how to play dumb 
i guess i can't bring myself to waste your time 
 
'cause we both know what i've been doing 
i've been intentionally bad at lying 
you're the only boy i ever let see through me 
and i hope you beleive me when i say i'm trying 
and i hope i never improve my game 
yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind 
and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame 
there must be a light of some kind 
there must be a light of some kind 
 
i must have blown a fuse or something 
cause it was so dark in my mind 
she came up to me with the sweetest face 
and she was holding a light of some kind 
and i still think of you as my boyfriend 
i don't think this is the end of the world 
but i think maybe you should follow my example 
and go meet yourself a really nice girl 
 
'cause we both know. . . 
 
in the end the world comes down to just a few people 
but for you it comes down to one 
but no one ever asked me if i thought i could be 
everything to someone 
there's a crowd of people harboured in every person 
there are so many roles that we play 
and you've decided to love me for eternity 
i'm still deciding who i want to be today 
 
'cause we both know. . .