I am seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold,  
I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old,  
I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight,  
I cannot believe I lost control of my fate,  
I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about,  
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I am gonna win,  
I can't afford to blow this one,  
I hate myself sometimes,  
I love myself,  
I need this way of life because it holds me.  
contradictions the way of life happiness is wealthyness is healthy  
now I've made it through those lies and deceit,  
I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore i am sure,  
now that I've found myself again it feels great I can't believe  
I'd lost control of my fate.