[1st Verse] 
 
Picture me 
In a casket 
Blasted 
Never nobody 
Knew how long 
The pain lasted 
Keep my eyes tight 
I'm frightened 
But I fights like Tyson 
When playin' this game of life 
I'm losing 
Longing to be enlightened 
Absorb my mind state 
Reduce the crime rate 
And take me out  
When running toward the Lord 
I see 'em fake me 
Out shook me 
So from church I play hookie 
Listen to the words of a brother 
The sick stutters 
So you better better  
Get the get the bags ready 
Comes a killer killer 
Like Skagnetti 
My brains contaminated 
Hella rotten 
Wasn't me that killed you 
Who was it what was it 
The effects of the mildew 
My brain's wilted 
In my eyes the world is a bit tilted 
Lord take me away 
Before somebody else gets killed 
Blood spilled 
Seriously 
This is the letter to my homies 
I'll be missin' 
God told me to behold a pale horse 
But I didn't listen 
It's hard man 
My life is scarred man 
I'm losing my mind 
So now it's time 
Sincerely sign 
N9NE 
 
[Chorus] 
 
I just wanna die 
I don't want to wake up 
I don't wanna cuz 
That's the way that I feel 
I'm barely hanging on 
I don't want to wake up 
I don't wanna cuz 
That's the way it has to be 
 
[repeat 2x] 
 
[2nd Verse] 
 
I made your life a living hell 
With my infidelity 
Remember your telling me 
All I give a damn about 
Is weed stems and melodies 
Remember you 
Spent 30 minutes in the hospital parking lot 
Crying 
When the blood test read 
The baby of another woman was mine 
99.99 
You should've left 
Along time ago like Mary J. say 
Just let it go like Ray J. 
Con't 
I know your mamma heard 
You yelling mayday 
Spent my life trying to R-A to the P 
You sick of me 
Always bein' B to the R-O-K to the E 
Now there's nothin' 
Else left of me 
I was a bum 
But you still wanted some 
Through the rain, snow and thunder 
Foul ups , bleeps and blunders 
But no man shall tear asunder 
Is what you said 
You should've put multi bullets 
In my head 
When you found that evil  
Instinct was a song  
Where the events actually went on 
This is the letter 
To my homie, my friend 
Who put up with me for 8 
So now to take me 
Really quickly is my fate 
I'm sorry 
For making it hard 
I know your scarred 
I'm losing my mind 
So now it's time 
Sincerely sign 
N9ne 
 
[Chorus] 
 
I just want to die 
I don't want to wake up 
I don't wanna cuz 
That's the way that I feel 
I'm barely hanging on 
I don't want to wake up 
I don't wanna cuz 
That's the way it has to be 
 
[repeat 2x] 
 
[3rd Verse] 
 
I love ya'll 
The dynamic duo, my babies 
It ain't your fault 
That your daddy's crazy 
Donny, 
I miss your drumming like me 
One day you'll be ruling 
Leelee, 
I miss you in my face 
Yellin' 
Daddy, what you doin' 
You two are the reason 
Why I'm still standing today 
But I'm 1600 miles away 
And you get my heart sinkin' 
When I start thinkin' about you babies 
I heavily start drinkin' 
On a daily puffin' 
I'm seeing my heart 
I gots to toughin' 
Can't see me leavin' my angels with nothin' 
So I keep bussin' 
Use my pain for you two 
I've gotta come up in the game 
So one day you can do the same with yours 
Love you galore 
And I ain't playin' 
makin' me put an end 
To this suicidal mind state sayin' 
 
[chorus] 
 
I don't want to wake up 
I don't wanna cuz 
That's the way I feel 
I'm barely hanging on 
I don't want to wake up 
I don't wanna cuz 
That's the way it has to be 
 
[repeat 2x]